Hey ~ clubbers, this is a weird one, but I also feel like I’m among fairly self-aware people here, many I am familiar with and respect, and many others who are the kind of people who would be on this list to begin with.
I doubt the question I’m posing will be lost on you. And if it goes unanswered, well, I know it’s a pretty expansive and personal question. Maybe some of you will find it relevant, maybe you won’t. At the heart of the issue is my love of making things, and finding myself with no direction that leads me toward doing so.
Think that’s enough self-conscious sandbagging to cover the bases.
I’m 33 and I’ve been self-employed as a writer for most of my adult life. I stuck with it because circumstances demanded it – I’ve dealt with a lot of weirdly evenly spaced deaths in my family, been an estate executor twice, and now I am the last of my kind. I’m good at what I do, I negotiate and organize like nobody’s business, I work hard, I’ve got intensity and grit, I am dead calm in any storm. All things I learned from being executor of two estates at 19 while attending school full time.
The problem is, I no longer know what to do with any of that. Life quieted down so much after fifteen years of utter chaos, and now I’m incredibly aware of the fact that I’ve got nowhere to go back to and nowhere I’m expected to show up. I feel like a ship without a rudder, just drifting around without any direction, on a sea that’s gone calm for the first time I can remember.
It’s got me thinking of what all of the energy I used on tragedy could go toward. How I might be even better at my work. It’s got me thinking about taking a full time job somewhere I can mitigate chaos and make life easier for others besides myself. It’s got me thinking about going off to some foreign country for a few years. I don’t know. I’ve just started taking really crazy shots in the dark lately to try to find new things I could say yes to, but I don’t have any real sense of direction.
I don’t know if there’s an “answer” that makes this adrift, dislodged, floating feeling go away, but I need to find some new way forward now that it seems none of the old rules that I’m used to apply anymore.
If you’ve felt anything like this before, how’d you deal with it?
Hi Friends,
I cleaned up the webring and hit counter that I built during the original
tilde push in 2014.
You can join the webring here: http://tilde.club/~harper/join.html
and use the hit counter here: http://tilde.club/~harper/counter.html
yay!
-harper
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Harper Reed
t: @harper
p: +1 (773) 469-7666
Previous prompts:
1. Is the sunrise enough?
Today’s prompt:
Invent an animal for us and explain it in one paragraph. Where does it live? What does it eat? Anything unique about it? How rare is it? How large? Is there anything about this animal that will be interesting to my kids?
Holy moly.
1. Horribly embarrassed that I signed up for and got a ~tilde space that I did exactly nothing with. For 5 years.
2. Warm-belly-happy going through this giant mail-a-lanche in my in box.
3. I have abandoned all social media over the past year or two so, I guess, i’ll do ~tilde instead.
4. I don’t really know how to code so this might take a while.
5. Thanks everyone who has put effort into creating this.
Beste Grüße aus Hamburg
Roger
First off, if you haven't already checked it out, go look at Aaron Moman's (
~admoman <http://tilde.club/~admoman/>) Tilde Club RSS feed. It's a feed of
everything that has been updated on Tilde Club as it happens, and it's
available at this URL:
http://tilde.club/~admoman/feed/tilde.club.atom
As I was reading all the responses coming in last night, I realized, I want
a list of RSS feeds. I want to have a Tilde Club folder in my RSS reader
with all your blogs. I tried to follow links as people were mentioning
them, looking some folks up through google and what not and I realized,
well, I could just ask.
I know, I know, we haven't updated our blogs in the past 10 years. This is
okay. Because the beauty of RSS is that it's there, waiting for you, when
you are ready to post again.
So I made a google form: https://forms.gle/W3hTGU4ksUE6ExjE7
Go fill out the google form. Put in your RSS feed, wherever you think your
"main feed" is. If you have more than one feed, put the extra feeds in the
"extra feeds" question.
After a day or two, I'll take your responses and make an OPML file,
suitable for importing into your favorite RSS reader.
In the meantime, in this email thread, post your favorite RSS tips and
tricks and whatnot. I'll go first. On linux, I like Liferea, on Mac, I like
the newly rebooted Net News Wire. On Windows 10 I have not found anything I
like. Anyone using an RSS reader on Windows 10 that they like?
Thanks!
John Wilson (~crazybutable <http://tilde.club/~crazybutable>)
If you see weird characters like this showing up on people’s ~ web pages,
it’s because our HTML files are no longer being served as UTF-8 by default.
I have no idea when it changed, but possibly it's a bit of custom
configuration that didn’t survive the server switch.
To fix your own stuff, just put a little magic in each page’s <head>
section:
<meta charset="UTF-8">
Pardon if this question is dumb or has been addressed elsewhere. Is there, or are there plans, to set up a Patreon or something to help ensure that services continue to run (and flourish if our community swells?)
All the best,
~tingham
Okay, I have looked at the tildemapper code again and it should in fact
be picking up new people just fine.
It walks /home and looks in each user for a readable public_html dir, so
if you're not fully publicly readable there it won't map your pages.
There's also a killfile at /home/brendn/bin/botify/killfile which it
honors (I don't remember what that killfile was originally created for,
but it's publicly writable so you can put yourself in there if you don't
want mapped). It also has an internal killfile that I've put certain
things (like dynamically generated stuff that would be different every
time it looked at it).
It's at http://tilde.club/~silver/sitemap2.html by date.
Unrelated, but I just scrolled down to me and remembered this: the
terminal we should all be using to log into tilde.
http://tilde.club/~silver/2016-07-26-cool-retro-term.html
Over on my Tildespace, I’ve posted some links to Tilde Era ephemera that may be of interest to my fellow Tildezens. (One of those terms will catch on, right?) Things like:
A TIME Magazine article on cyberpunk from 1993 that I saved for some reason.
In 1995 I photocopied this article from New Media magazine on the various writing tools available for web pages (e.g. HoTMetaL, Web Weaver, etc)
When I got my first unix account back in 1994, my University made me affirming this ethics and acceptable use pamphlet about responsible use of electronic mail, how to use Pine, etc.
And in 1995, they established some web server policies.
David
~ironicsans
Imagine a person struggling with something really heavy, like depression or addiction. Imagine that one morning their friends manage to get them to watch a sunrise. It’s amazing. Life changing.
But you can’t see sunrises all the time. And even if you could, the novelty would wear off. As the morning wears on, and the memory of the sunrise fades, this person goes back to their normal life. Where they’re struggling again.
Many (all?) of us are overwhelmed and disheartened by today’s internet. So here’s a question to the group, as a die hard tildee. How can we make something like this last longer than a sunrise?
Love from New Zealand,
Jon
